This launch means everything to me
There have been so many days in the build up to this launch that I’ve been overwhelmed with anxiety. Tight jaw. Headaches. Lump in my throat. Today, September 7th, is launch day. I fought myself every step of the way to get here. I pushed through so many narratives that I wasn’t good enough and that I could never make this work. I’m exceptionally hard on myself, so you can imagine the narrative playing in my head over and over again. But today, I sat down after a slurry of social media, and asked myself, what does this launch mean to me?
It means everything to me. Cliche, I know, but I have poured all of my energy, all of my financial resources, all of my time, all of my hopes and dreams into a new career at 36. It IS fucking terrifying to start over and believe that it will work. For me and for my children. But what I viewed my feelings of lack and fear as abundance? What if I flipped it on it’s head and said doing this ALONE is actually EMPOWERING. I can acknowledge that i have come SO far through so much shit to be here. I have worked through my own layers of healing, I’ve educated myself, I’ve taken leaps and trusted the universe to guide me here, but I’m missing part of the story. What if abundance is behind this door? What if all of the hard days have led me here to my dream life?
I have to believe it’s true. I have to believe that my efforts are not going to waste. I know I’m here on this planet to help others. So with every bit of strength I have, I will keep taking steps forward. I will keep showing up to fulfill my dreams and build a beautiful life for my children and in turn, I will be able to provide help to an entire community of radical souls who also need that support and nourishment. I have a beautiful community of Radical Souls, Friends and Family who’ve been cheering me on behind the scenes and I am grateful for their love and support. That is abundance! That is worth flipping the narrative.
So, this launch is everything and I want to lean in to that empowering feeling. It’s a whole new chapter. The door is open and only good things await.
—Nessa
